The last two posts of this blog have dealt with those who question God's goodness and why He allows so much grief and suffering. There was a time when I thought God had abandoned me. It was a tough period of life when I had gone for over a year trying desperately to get a decent job, one that would provide for my family. Although I never accepted government handouts, we were grateful for family and friends who cared and provided groceries. During the month of August, 1985 I was selling life insurance and was not doing well at it. I remember going to the office late one night where I spent an hour on the floor pleading with God to help me make enough sales to pay the bills. I don't remember how the bills were paid, but I didn't make many sales. I was devastated. I believed God had turned His back and no longer cared for me. I got a job at McDonald's, flipping burgers - minimum wage.
Although God has not revealed to me why He allowed me to go through those dark days, I know that I would not be where I am today if God had not put me through His mill. I only wish I had more faith then, but in His goodness, God wrapped His loving arms around me and carried me forward.
For those who are in similar circumstances, I can truly say, I know what you are going through, for I have been there. Please allow God to be God. Don't doubt Him like I did. There is light at the other end of the tunnel. God has not abandoned you. Keep trusting Him.